First, I never felt myself in āYellowā. This guy is like⦠A part of me ? Idk really but heās just the same person as Won, Won that has been my first personality as a boy. I just told him to leave my mind, and he left.
I think Yellow is one of my personalities/alter (idk reallyā¦) that live in my mind. Let me explain you.
In my mind, (I call it RTM, rondle table mind- it doesnāt make sense, like just all of my thoughts) there is :
- Yellow, a boy (he represents sadness, cuteness)- I see him as Yung Kai
- Sozo, a girl (she represents power)- I see her as Chaewon
- Shiawase, a boy (the sexy and dirty part of my mind)- I see him as Keshi
- Jane/Jen, a girl (love, sensibility, creativity)- I see her as Jennie
- and Silver , a boy(fun)- I see him as Sunoo
And theyāre all a part of me. Theyāre all of my thoughts, I think. Itās likeā¦
Imagine, one day, I see one of my friends crying. I wonāt think āoh.. why is she crying ?ā but something like :
Sozo : why this bitch is crying again, please ?
Silver : she lost a game lol
Shiawase : donāt be that bad
Yellow : I feel bad for herā¦
Jane : GO TO SEE HER ?!
And I will respond to them, in my mind or⦠Sometimes talking irl
Me : guys, please, calm down and tell me what I should do rn
And⦠Itās always the same
They came in my life it was like⦠Won was one of them, but again, I told him to leave.
JHGFYTDRYSTEDWF
One of them can front, but not totally⦠Itās complicated
And also, my name now is LeeYun. Kiiranugasen LeeYun. (or leeyun, itās the same)
My gender⦠Idk⦠Iām like a demi-boy, bcz I donāt feel totally myself a boy, but I donāt feel myself a girl, but not as a non-binary too, and Iām not genderfluid. Iām just someone in this earth and thatās it ahah
And well⦠Itās not finished ! I try to search, by internet, in my mind⦠I do as the best as I can do